foolish fool's eye

This is the one crazy ride I am more scared of getting off than getting on. The hardest thing for me to deal with is rejection but what's harder is dealing with a feeling that you know that is there but can not be. Hoping is one. But knowing is something else. It's like knowing that a fruit is sweet but you can't eat it. It's throwing away something that you haven't even held yet. I can only string along long enough. And I am not sad about the pain. I am sad about what we could have had but not having the strength to take it. And as tears fall down my face I realize I am not ready to let go... so I'll string along as far as I can. And I am not expecting anything back or anything more than this. I just wanna give it to you. Not because you deserve it but because I just simply want to. So when you tell me my stop is coming soon, it already came too many times. I just chose to push that start button every single time. So where do we go from here? Nothing is e...

The pork barrel has always been a big controversy to us all... except of course to those who knows it "first hand". This is a bold move of Pres. Pnoy and i hope and pray that this does do something about corruption in our country and not just a reason for most politicians to find a another way to get some. The posting of projects online and public biddings at  Department of Budget and Management  and  Philippine Government Electronic Procurement System  where people can get to see is also a good one. Transparency is key. And if the government can't be anything but transparent then maybe they can earn the full trust and confidence of people like me who have long lost it and just made do with what was there for me. Kudos for this one Mr. President. The Government has never been this online and out there before and it just makes me feel that I am important to be able to not just here the news on tv or news from papers and what news authorities put out in public bu...

I get poignantly lost in every beat that reminds me of you...

Spend all your time waiting For that second chance, For a break that would make it okay. There's always some reason To feel not good enough, And it's hard, at the end of the day. I need some distraction, Oh, beautiful release. Memories seep from my veins. Let me be empty, Oh, and weightless, and maybe  I'll find some peace tonight. [Chorus] In the arms of the angel, Fly away from here, From this dark, cold hotel room, And the endlessness that you fear. You are pulled from the wreckage, Of your silent reverie. You're in the arms of the angel, May you find some comfort here. So tired of the straight line, And everywhere you turn, There's vultures and thieves at your back. The storm keeps on twisting. Keep on building the lies That you make up for all that you lack. It don't make no difference, Escape one last time. It's easier to believe in this sweet madness, Oh, this glorious sadness, That brings me to my knees. [Chorus] You're in the arms of the angel...

Today it's 33°C with a relative humidity of 66%, courtesy of the weather bug. Oh yeah, it is sunny. Our body sweat's evaporation process makes our body cooler but high humidity prevents the evaporation of our sweat so we are left hot and sticky in this weather. It has been like this for a while and some people have suffered from heat stroke. A 20-27°c temp is our comfort zone and anything higher than that could cause heat illnesses . So what does high heat do to us? The common effects of extreme body heat are we experience mental as well as physical problems  like getting grumpy and spaced out and getting really tired and inefficient. And in extreme cases, when body heat rises up to 41°C, this could be a possible heat stroke. It is important that we are aware about the signs because heat stroke requires immediate medical attention since delayed treatment could cause damage to our kidneys, heart and brain. Body temp rising up to 41°C is a main symptom but the person usually fai...

Okay, so am watching Pinoy Master Chef and i dunno why i thought of sayote . They call it mirliton in the US and others also call it Chayote or vegetable pear. So here, we call it sayote . When i was a kid and started learning about vegetables and stuff I had the impression that people didn't give much attention to sayote coz i grew up being told that it doesn't have much nutrients... just water. So with all these trending posts about health benefits of fruits and vegetables, i decided to look this one up and what do you know... turns out, 100g of this vegetable gives us 23% of our daily recommended intake of b-complex vitamin, folates. It is low in calories just 16kcal per 100g and no saturated fats or cholesterol, it's got anti-oxidants and vitamin C, considerable amount of potassium and the rest of the b-complex vitamins. And it is also good in minerals like iron, manganese, phosphorous, copper and zinc. so much for the humble sayote.  The next time i am having or...

i always want what i cannot have. and i always go for the ones who doesn't want me back. mebbe it is true that we accept to love who we "think" we deserve and not those we believe and know in our hearts who is right for us. there is no perfect thing so one doesn't just give up on something that is flawed. we fight for it but unfortunately, fighting too many times gets really tiring and exhausting. so i gez giving up is okay. as long as we give it all we got. just like what i did... so you can call me a fool coz i still want you and i will not be the same without you... but i didn't really have you, didn't i? so that makes me all the more foolish than i already am.