foolish fool's eye

This is the one crazy ride I am more scared of getting off than getting on. The hardest thing for me to deal with is rejection but what's harder is dealing with a feeling that you know that is there but can not be. Hoping is one. But knowing is something else. It's like knowing that a fruit is sweet but you can't eat it. It's throwing away something that you haven't even held yet. I can only string along long enough. And I am not sad about the pain. I am sad about what we could have had but not having the strength to take it. And as tears fall down my face I realize I am not ready to let go... so I'll string along as far as I can. And I am not expecting anything back or anything more than this. I just wanna give it to you. Not because you deserve it but because I just simply want to. So when you tell me my stop is coming soon, it already came too many times. I just chose to push that start button every single time. So where do we go from here? Nothing is e

The pork barrel has always been a big controversy to us all... except of course to those who knows it "first hand". This is a bold move of Pres. Pnoy and i hope and pray that this does do something about corruption in our country and not just a reason for most politicians to find a another way to get some. The posting of projects online and public biddings at  Department of Budget and Management  and  Philippine Government Electronic Procurement System  where people can get to see is also a good one. Transparency is key. And if the government can't be anything but transparent then maybe they can earn the full trust and confidence of people like me who have long lost it and just made do with what was there for me. Kudos for this one Mr. President. The Government has never been this online and out there before and it just makes me feel that I am important to be able to not just here the news on tv or news from papers and what news authorities put out in public but to