foolish fool's eye

it's weird how we can get so attached to a piece of gadget like a boyfriend. i get grumpy without it and if it suddenly stops working, my world stops spinning for a while. :D i remembered getting to know my phone and it was hard. getting to know the apps, what to do with them, troubleshooting, getting new apps, how to make things work for me... then dealing with the battery life being so short. i had to bring a charger around coz i can't seem to deal with the fact that it could die on me anytime. so what i did is get a led app... assign unique colors to my app notifications and put my phone on silent. it does extend a bit of battery life and it works coz am always looking at my phone anyway. :p lol this is such a random blog post. so this is what happens after a major drunken moment... the soberification process... brings about random ideas... lol bottom line is i love my BB... please don't leave me... T_T hehehehe

i didn't really understand calories until i started realizing i've been gobbling up too much of it. and  they are all spread out in all the wrong places in my body. i looked at myself in the mirror a month ago and started to see myself differently and that's when it hit me. i need a change. i am an app addict to start with so my calorie rave came accidentally when i was in one of my app-crazy mode where i scan all free apps available for my phone and download anything that catches my attention. so i came by this calorie app that says i could lose weight by taking control of my calorie intake and this app should help me do just that. i honestly downloaded it out of curiosity. because i am a very curious person. :D and then i started following directions from it and i see now that it is actually working. so i am now very surprised at myself at how i watch what i eat when i normally don't. i eat anything that looks good. i don't wanna sound like a health nut and all ...

In my short lifetime i have realized a lot of things. one is, people love to judge. and we especially love judging misdeeds of others. i keep on trying to figure out why... so i decided to make myself the lab-rat for my little experiment. i had these questions to answer: what makes me judge someone? how do i judge them? what happens after i judge that person? what good have i got out of it? Firstly, i judge people because i am either intrigue or envious. intrigue because there is something i wanna know about that person and there is no way of knowing it or i am just too proud or "indifferent" to ask. so i start to make my own judgments about him and come up with my own answers. in short, a way of satisfying my curiosity. now, envious because they have something i do not have or want so badly but unable to get. so i judge them, mostly badly, to justify the "fact" that one cannot get everything but rather one gets what they deserve. so i start thinking of "yes, ...

we're on the road, off to a gig @ the city. it has stopped raining but it's cloudy and it's around 24 degrees C. not my kind of temperature. i'd rather sweat than have cold feet.

it's been a gloomy weather lately. and nights are especially cold... 24°C. it's probably a warm night for other countries but no not in mine. i could easily say that it is gonna be a sad week since i can't play tennis when i am off and when i am working it's too cold and my voice cracks sometimes. but life is a matter of perspective. since i can't go out and play, i can watch tennis videos and learn techniques from pros :) and since it's too cold to sing outdoors, maybe it's time to use my colorful shawls and scarves :) i can choose to be gloomy like the sky and weep for boring days... but i also have a choice of sunny-ing my day when it gets gloomy by brightening up my smile or i could frown a little brighter(if it's possible) and thin k of ways to make life productive when it seems like it can't be. and... when i can't go out, i don't have a choice but to stay in with the family. :) good tim es...